I Am More . . .

“I Am More … “
A deeply personal personal piece. For me it’s symbolic of an emotional and physical rebirth. 

The last couple of years I’ve had some horrible things come up for me; repressed memories of sexual assault, diagnoses of PTSD, Major depressive disorder, acute anxiety disorder. I’ve been diagnosed with Chronic Lyme Disease on top of the Celiac Disease I’m already dealing with. My cat that I’ve had since I was 7 died at the age of 19. I almost killed myself. I went to the hospital for a week to recover on a psych ward.
I’ve had to quit my jobs, (go on hiatus for one of them) and move back home with my parents because my physical health is so poor.
But I am not my sicknessness. I am not my mental illnesses. I am not my pain. I am so much more.
I am in therapy and I am seeing an incredible doctor. I am on the road to healing and I can feel it. I am not pausing my life, despite barely being able to leave my bedroom some days. I am taking online art classes and I am learning new things. I am working on my book almost every day. I am reading, both fiction and books to help me learn and grow.
I am more than you see. I am breaking out of my chrysalis. 

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Technical Info:
Holbien and Windsor Newton Watercolors on Arches Rough 300gsm/140lb Watercolor Paper, with metallic silver ink and metallic gold prismacolor markers. 

This was a learning experience. It’s not executed as perfectly as I would have liked and looking at it now I feel there are things I could have portrayed better. However, overall, given that I’m only just now beginning to get into water color very seriously, I am quite proud of the end result. 

Evy - Christmas Gift

A Christmas gift for my sister and law of my precious niece. I'm very excited to finally share it!

And here's a little gif of the process: 

Atchoum the Cat

So, this an actual real famous cat, called Atchoum. My friend and I have used his likeness in personal stories. And the character is named Garbage (he's very sweet.) So, I did this for my friend, of this ridiculously silly, dapper, cat.
You can see more of Atchoum on instagram under @ Atchoumthecat. I highly recommend doing so.

The Desert Fox

Erwin Rommel, a German General, also known as the Desert Fox. The commissioner wanted the piece to resemble an old photo. 

Tom Hiddleston

I started this yesterday, going into it thinking I’d like to do something faster with looser brush work. I worked on it on and off all day and while it’s not perfect, I’m quite pleased! 

Tom Hiddleston, Adobe Photoshop. 

And here is my facebook page. 
captainslady13 on Instagram.

Crazy Horses and Cold Slither

Cover Painting I did for the novel Crazy Horses, By David J. West. 

His Amazon Page.

You can get the book on Amazon HERE.

New cover painting I did for the novel Cold Slither, by David J. West. 

His Amazon Page.

You can get the book HERE. (With it's old cover.) 

Watch a video of the painting process for Cold Slither below. 

Loki Digital Painting

I started this two years ago! Finally decided it was time to finish it up.
I recorded the process, here's the time lapse video. 

Sphynx Studies

Some kitty cat studies. I chose sphynx cats today because the lack of hair makes it really easy to see the twisting and turning dynamics. Very cool cats.

Leyla - Commission

Commission done for a gaming friend of her character Leyla.

Cassibellawn - Art Trade

I did an art trade with a friend from deviantArt a little bit ago. She painted my horse Tanzen for me and gave him some fancy wings, and I painted her character Cassibellawn for her. Here's my half:

Swing From the Stars - Doctor Who

Last year I attended Salt Lake City Comic Con (again) and Matt Smith and Alex Kingston were there! I knew they'd been invited ahead of time and set to work on this piece with the intent of them autographing it for me.
I made a print of it for each of them and presented that to them at the time of signing. Both of them were incredibly gracious and kind. It was a really fantastic experience.
So here is the finished version before autographing and after.

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The Goblin King

I've been working on this between commissions and finally finished it tonight. I've wanted to paint Jareth for ages, sad that it took David's death for me to finally get around to it.

Labyrinth was one of my favorite movies when I was younger, and I remember listening to Bowie a lot when I was in High School.
I once walked into Seminary and my teacher asked what I was listening to. I told him, "David Bowie." And he was like, "Really?!" like that was so cool. Because it totally was so cool.

I'll miss this man. He was amazing. <3

In Honor of David Bowie. 

The Empath Demon

A Friends Original Character, Loch, the Empath Demon. He closes or covers his normal eye so he can better see emotions with his lighter one.
Painted in Photoshop, referenced from a flipped photo of Ian Somerhalder

Jack and Poppy

Alternate Universe version of Jack Sparrow (he's totally a rock star) and a friends original character, Poppy.
Pencil Sketch, scanned and painted in Photoshop

Beast Roary Tee - Christmas Gift

Gift for my best bud, Lindsey who is collaborating on Solar Kingdoms with me. 

Beast Roary. 

You can purchase the Tee-shirt here. 

Bond

A Christmas Gift for my very awesome friend, Skyler, who loves Bond.
Copic liner and Copic Markers. 

Christmas Commission

Commission for a friend of her two daughters, a gift for her husband. 

Avalette Portrait

Queen Avalette Ekdrayas

Character Portrait
Avalette is one of the four main characters of a series of novels I'm writing.
You can learn more about Solar Kingdoms by visiting this blog.

SK Character Work

A few new Solar Kingdoms works. Solar Kingdoms is a series of novels I'm currently writing. To learn more about that check out this blog here.

Selnam, Character, Before and After something terrible happened to him. (Spoilers duh.)

Selnam, Character

Jeena, Character. Engineer Apprentice and Mechanic on the flyer called The New Moon.

Ja'ek, Character (one of the four main characters) sketch.

Ja'ek and Nessa. (She is dead. Spoilers oops) 

Ja'ek T-shirt Design. You can get one of those here!
(The t-shirt design is MUCH BRIGHTER so it shows up on the dark fabric.)

Orson and Whiskey

Characters from a story belonging to a friend and I. One day I hope to do a graphic novel or a comic of these two. ONE DAY.

Orson is an English gardener that lives in Scotland. After a storm he finds Whiskey in a puddle, suffocating. He saves her life and later they find a way for her to get legs, but still be able to switch to her mermaid form when she's in water.

These first two are an experimental style. I doodled this pretty fast and actually really love the result. If I do a comic or graphic novel it may end up in a similar style.
And then of course I had to put some color on it for fun.

I was given copic markers as an early Christmas gift from the person Whiskey's character belongs to. (I may have cried of joy.)

 I used those for this! And gave this to her as an early Christmas gift.